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for once, i thot we felt like strangers.. us before and us now.. it felt like millions apart..

together, we were working towards the same goals.. now, we stand opposite each other, fighting for the same goals.. the irony of life..

u said it was for my own good.. i couldn see any.. perhaps i;m blinded by the invisible.. perhaps it nv had existed..

the tiredness within me.. consuming my every inch.. i cant help but succumb to it..
the weakness of human..

the unglam side of me, showing as the days go..
hide it, i cant, so i can only let it unleash before u..

out of my expectation, most definitely.. i'm more than pleasantly surprised by this..
i cant say i'm shocked.. i shld hav been mentally prepared for this..

words cant speak the thots i felt.. this is juz a mild side of wat i felt..

hang on, i will..
bite thru it, i muz

it;s more than juz pain,it;s tormenting pain..
it;s more than juz sadness, it;s overwhelming misery..

putting an end to this, is putting a full stop to this blog..

bye.for.now.jess

hall 11 prodn pics

as promised.. the pics are here!!! xuan sent them yesterday.. and here i am, uploading it today.. how efficient can i be.. if only i can be THIS EFFICIENT for my projs.. ARGHHHH.. ok enuf of the crap, see the pics.......................

at central's yoshi, dinner time!!

after the prodn, a big "yeah" for yong an!!

at clarke quay, hiding behind gary to "cover" the fats..

me and xuan.. cld see myself with early signs of aging

gary and his less-than-enthusiastic "yeah"

congratulations S'pore

congrats S'pore, on the holding of the youth olympics 2010.. well done.. and let the world noe our existence..

we are part of South East Asia.. remember..

muahaha

bye.for.now.jess

Hall 11 production

juz back from NTU's hall 11 yearly production.. was at the same production last yr, supporting xuan.. this yr, it's yong an.. muahaha.. such a deja vu..

xiang didn make it.. cos she had presentation til 8.. such a shame.. if not, the 3 of us will be able to hav a gathering or sort.. another time i guess.. i'm sure we will hav the opportunity one..

yong an is still pretty much the same, juz tt i thot he 发福了.. i guess NTU's food is too gd, and he cant resist it.. we were happily "gossiping" abt yong an.. didn noe his parents and ah mah were sitting 1 row in front of us..

so damn paiseh, when the prodcution end, and he wave to his family.. opps opps.. haha.. andhis ah mah touched his stomach.. guess she was lamenting on the amt of wt yong an put on..

to ah mah: 没有啦，勇安还是很帅啦！！too late to say all these.. i noe.. and ah mah wun be reading my blog also..

but, yong a's prodn is great.. his performance is still as great as b4, when we acted tgt for NY's 白云岗.. equally comical.. really can bring the hse down type..

so boring.. no one's online.. no one to talk to.. shall go bathe then..

bye.for.now.jess

p/s: not "i love u", but.. xuan, waiting for e photos..

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nee says to blog in chinese.. but i juz dun hav the feel to write anythg in chinese.. haha.. nee is so going to kill me after reading this..

anyway, nothg much to blog on this sacred day.. haha.. it;s v day... juz another day for me.. but not "juz another day" for many others ard the world.. to all, cherish those ard u.. v day is not juz meant for lovers/couples etc... but, for all of us, to spend some time with our loved ones.. like our papas, mamas.....

ok.. this blog is getting a little out of pt le.. i shall stop here...

人因梦想而伟大

never stop dreaming

bye.for.now.jess

WAT??? same accessories, same shorts some more!!!

alrite, i noe this photo is awkardly taken.. but then, the pt i wanna make is this..

i wore this combi of clothes to class today.. and as i was happily walking in the underpass to the bus stop, i saw someone with the same "red heart" accessory as me.. damn.. super spoil my day.. i noe this is not a monopoly, but a monopoLISTIC competition.. but ya, same time, same place, different pple with same acessories is a little too off le ba..

ok next.. zoom in on the shorts.. my brown OP shorts, which i had it since last sem.. then.. as i was "zao-ing" aka pon-tan BE lect to chat chat outside, i saw this ger wearing the same shorts as me.. super duper faintzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!

y like tt???????????????

ok i noe no big fuss.. but wat the heck.. wearing 5 thgs out, alr got 2 same as others.. damn damn..

ok.. tt's all for today..

bye.for.now.jess

standing on the shoulders of giants

half way thru my b2b minor, thot shld juz take 5, blog for a while..

was lookig thru pa's ATI training manual, saw a quote which i thot had quite an impact.. it's said by isaac newton.. cant rem the exact words.. but it flows along this line..

*u can see farther cos u r standing on the shoulders of giants*

wat an impact.. standing on the shoulders of giants allows us to see further and farther.. does it tell me that i shld really stand high to see the beautiful thgs that may be away fr me now?

we may be blocked by a huge rock found in front of us.. but if we stand high, even if it;s slightly higher than the rock, we will be able to see the beautiful scenes..

it's not that the scenes dun exist, it's juz missing fr our lives for a while..

bye.for.now.jess

f**ked up day

gosh, today will be the day i guess i will nv forget.. it;s where all the f**ked up thgs happen altogether.. guess they decided to meet or wat ba..

it all started when i went over to anutie pauline's hse.. they had lion dance.. and i went deaf for a period.. then, i got smacked rite in the face, at my rite eye by some flying vegetables.. those which they use while they use during the performance of the lion dance.. then, everyone tried to ease the whole thg by saying i will strike 4D soon.. wtf.. i hav no wish for such thgs.. y dun u stand there and i smack u with tt and tell u u r gg to strike 4D soon..man.. i felt like gg out rite at tt instance..

then, lucas was crying in the car all the way fr airport to our hse.. how i wish i nv "volunteer" to wanna bring him out.. now, i will nv bring him out, nv in my whole life le.. unless i noe there is someone who can be there to tame him, and tt is aka, my brother, his father..

ok, i guess tt;s abt all.. i juz wanted to blog to vent out all my anger..

it's really nv abt the pain, it abt the shame..

i finally understood wat it means today

bye.for.now.jess

last CNY at old market

muaha, it;s me again, juz 30 secs away fr the last blog entry.. haha.. went to old market jzu now.. it;s been a place we will visit every 29th nite... juz 2 days shy of CNY.. guess it;s a habit, since we will hop down to walk walk and eat eat when we lived there last time.. tt's y, even though we move le, still will go back and walk walk and eat eat..

this is the last CNY where we will go old mkt le.. cos they are demolishing it to build some new condos or watever it is.. so gotta go today no matter wat, cos next yr, it wun be there anymore le..

haven eat dinner, so we gotta find somethg to fill our stomachs.. it;s alr 12 midnite, so u can imagine the no. of stalls still opened for biz.. the ans: not much!! so we juz gotta go for...

<--wan tan mee.. too bad they dun hav mee pok..

and after tt, i was slurping hot key-huay teh aka crysanthamum tea.. a treat fr uncle, shu xing's pa as he runs the coffee stall at the mkt..

<--neh, his stall..

it;s 3plus am le.. i better go slp le..

bye.for.now.jess

acting as tourist part 2

Day: 01/02/2008 (Friday)
Time: 11.30pm
Venue: Wisma Atria's Esprit
Mission: Acting as a tourist
Goals: To try on the clothes/accessories as i cant afford to buy them

fr the above descriptions, i guess u noe wat happen at esprit le ba.. it's tryin clothes time.. cos.. THE PRICES ARE WAY BEYONG COMPREHENSIBLE!!!

i tried on the cap first.. i thot it looks gd, on me.. nah, but i didn buy it lah.. cos it's like only a few occassions where i will wear it.. perhaps i wun ven wear it at all.. muahaha.. so i thot, juz take photo lah.. dun say nv try b4..

<--i thot i look gd in this

then it's to the vest.. hey.. this vest, u guess how much it is... it's a freaking $89.90!!! gosh.. nut it felt pretty comfy i muz say.. so i guess this is wat they call.. u pay for the quality.. so i thot, take photo again lah.. since i'm not buying.. actually, the focus shld be on the vest.. and cos i didn button all the way, so i gotta use my hand and hold the bottom part.. then my gey-kiang(act smart) sis went to take full portrait.. and now, it looks like i'm pressing on my stomach cos i hav stomachache or somethg along this line.. faintz!!



after all this hustle and bustle.. the mission has come to an end.. and to commerate, we took pics to end it off sweet and nice.. but the chairman, tan aka fu mama didn wanna share her smile with us, so it;s only the 2 kia-kiahs taking pics to end this mission off.. well done babes...

thanks babes (nee and pei) for allowing me day off to complete my mission.. thanks sweeties...
and y is it titled as "acting as tourist"? cos tourists like to take photos anywhere and everywhere.. even in shopping centres.. how appropriate can this be rite?

bye.for.now.jess