my sources of comfort

great!! the heaviest-going paper (i noe, it shld be heavy-going only, but i wanna emphasise how super duper heavy-gg it is, so i called it "heaviest-going")

anyway, i was saying, the heaviest-going paper Global Marketing is finally over.. although i felt that it wasnt tt well done as i had run out of time.. and literally wrote crap for the 2nd essay qn.. haiz.. wat to do, i always had poor management of time.. kept telling myself, ok 3.30 muz finish, then later, it's 3.45, then it's 4PM!!! tt's well i really went on to do the 2nd essay qn..-->therefore, NOT ENUF TIME!!!

but then again, since it;s over, shall not brood over it le.. cos it;s not gg to help anyway.. but something fascinating happened at the exam hall today.. this invigilator actually screamed out loud at this candidate..she said the student is a "problematic student who fails to surrender her exam script." damn drama sia... SIM is moving towards typical taiwanese idol drama.. by being... DRAMATIC!!!!

alrite, now a recap on my sources of motivation and comfort during the mugging period..

firstly, i told ma that i was feeling lethagic during to the erratic sleeping hrs and long hrs of mugging.. so she made me some super big tonic soup.. muahaha.. no lah.. actually i also dunno wat's in the soup.. i juz drink.. taste yummy, considering the fact that i did not hav breakfast tt morning... ok lah, it's yummy lah..
<--YUMMY!!!

<--大朴汤

bought this packet of Vitasoy on my way back.. purposely drop 1 stop earlier so i can walk to the Shell petrol station opposite my hse to buy mash potato fr 7-11, only to find that they dun sell mash potato there.. sob sob, so sad.. to prevent myslf fr looking stupid, walking into the shop with no car and no purchase, i had to pick somethg up.. so i juz bought vitasoy.. so while crossing the road and walking back, was busy slurping vitasoy.. had a sense of fulfillment, although mash potato will giv me more satisfaction.. but then again, no fish, prawn also gd lah..


drinking 375ml of soya bean milk, felt really 涨.. reminds me of
our GM proj where we do dao huay zui also.. and we got HD..
ho hap-pi orh!!!

bye.for.now.jess

taking some time off fr studies...

taking some time off fr studies to blog.. since watching the repeat telecast of "guess guess guess", so multi-task a little, watch tv and blog.. muahaha

so fast, tmr is the start of the 1st paper le.. a little worrying cos it's the final yr le.. cant fail any module so that i can graduate smoothly.. tend to feel a little pressuring.. but juz gotta motivate myself, psycho myself a little so that thgs will go smoothly..

let's hope for some divine intervention..

heard the new song fr li jiu zhe "xiang tai duo" aka think too much.. great song.. cant state the reason y but it's a song with meaning.. i feel.. the lyrics have significant meaning, so yupz.. can go listen when free.. anyway it's the song i used for the blog.. so yupz.. can listen listen.. (credits to pei for helping me to change my blog song.. paiseh, nv take the effort to learn how to do it..) muahaha...

haiz.. with exam mood looming, nv really hav the mood to blog.. keep feeling there is this air above my head.. (hit hit hit above my head) haha, childish... positive motivation for myself and ignitions.. we can pull thru this tgt..

CAUTION: do not look at pei's blog.. heard fr lin tt u will get very stressful after reading her blog cos pei includes her studies progress in it.. haha.. pei is going to kill me again..

my whole back seems to be breaking..not sure y, as if there is this invisible person sitting on my back.. wooooooooooooooooooooo~~~~~~ scary man.. tried cracking my bone, watever i can crack, but it doesn seem to be wking.. will the person sitting on my back pls get off??????????? if not i will get police to catch u!!!!!!

hurry up, exams quick finish.. then can go for holiday le!!! yeah.. will b gg to korea first (fr 17-24 nov) b4 gg to HK on 28 nov.. sounds exciting though.. so stress myself out now then can go enjoy and make a nuisance of myself during the trips..

ok lah.. shall go watch tv now le.. haiz.. then it will be back to studies.. HAIZ!!!!!

bye.for.now.jess

juz a blog~

juz wanna say this again: happy bdae ms tan, although it's after 12am and it's a new day le.. but i noe ms tan will appreciate one.. hee hee.. this i say one.. muahaha..



anyway juz wanna upload some pics.. all the mischiefs we committed in AMK lib, the place which we hav been "camping" in for the past few weeks for our intensive mugging.. it's less than 10 days the start of the 1st paper, which is GM.. this is sucky.. but then, with the end of the exams will be play time.. looking forward to tt though.. finally new wat it meant by "no pain, no gain"!!


alrity, i shall stop all the grouses and start with the photos..









chocolates fr dar-->chocos make u happy!! moral support
nee and me smiling for the cam.. take 5, study break..

bye.for.now.jess

happy birthday ms tan

HAPPI BIRTHDAY YATING!!!!!

muahaha, are u touched? are u touched? i'm sure u r (dun puke!!) anyway juz wanna say happi bdae!! u r finally 21 le.. cant wait to go over to eric's place to celebrate this "auspicious day" with u.. hope it's not like pei's one, like wedding like tt, so grand.. cos i will only turn up in t-shirt and shorts.. (pei is gg to kil me when she reads this, but anyway, we are MSN-ing while i'm writing this blog, she like ghost like tt, so scary. popping in and out at the "rite" time)

finally, the last member of Ignitions turning 21 le.. but it's exams round the corner, so pretty unfair for yating, cos i think most of us will be attending her party thinkin abt GM, how Brazilians hate the idea of campbell soup cos it's viewed as something women hav to turn to cos they cant cook soup, or we may be thinkin of BF, y WACC is independent or somethg like tt, wat's the relationship bet. SML and CML, CAPM etc..but then, we will still enjoy ourselves to the fullest, cos it;s after all yating's bdae.. and we can treat this like a reward for ourselves for the past few days where we were in intensive mugging..

alrity.. shall continue on my MSN-ing with pei and nee le..

bye.for.now.jess

not sure abt it man

i'm not sure if this blog can come out not.. dunno y my blog entries cant be seen by, duh, myself.. so funny siah... but anyway, juz wanted to blog lah.. cos haven been doing it for a long time le..

have been choosing to "appear offline" these days, not sure y though.. aven had the feeling to want to talk much.. guess i'm trying to act lonely again.. sometimes i wonder, since when hav i ever so alone.. so much so that i dun really need anyone's company, not at all.. the only time i felt real alone was last weekend. juz came back fr a family chalet. ma was away in Genting and pa had to attend a wedding dinner.. took a nap, woke up and made myself cup noodles, while watching tv.. doing these all alone, i feel a sudden gush of lonliness all of a sudden.. i text my sis, simple words, "i'm so lonely". man, how emo hav i gotten myself..

but i was up to my usual self again.. i guess, this is how only child feels.. for once, i was able to experience that.. it was lonely ya, but it told me something, i dun really need another person's company in order to survive that moment of lonliness.. perhaps, being alone has its benefits.. (and for once, i missed my mum... her complains, her voice, her everything)

heard this new song fr tarcy su.. she's was this singer from the 90s'. think everyone grew up hearing her sing ya zi (duck), and lemon tree.. but she had this new songs which is really good. the lyrics made lots sense... it's titled "zuo pie zi" aka left hander.. initially, i didn pay much attention to it, i even thot, wat sort of title is tt? so corny? wat so nice to write abt left handers? are they aliens? but after the DJ narrate a line fr the song, i thot, such meaningful words.. this is how it goes:

左边的无名指，

我渴望是你最后决定定居的地址

to translate, it simply means i hope that the ring finger on your left hand is your final address. this means u will never break up with me to know someone else.. how often, we hope, we could be tgt, but how many times, "together forever" is real? i never believe in that, i juz hope, we will cherish the times we had and not think abt wanting to be tgt forver, cos being tgt forever is never real, never going to happen.

food for thot for today

bye.for.now.jess

my F.E.A.R.S

i fear the night, for i fear the day that comes
i fear the morning, for i fear the night that follows
i fear the sunrise, for i fear the sunset that creeps in
i fear the sun, for i fear the rain that may appear
i fear the thunder, for i fear the lightning that strikes

i fear my cries, for i fear the empathy u hav for me
i fear my happiness, for i fear the sadness that tails behind
i fear the mistakes i make, for i fear the owing up i hav to do
i fear my thoughts, for i fear the misunderstandings i may form
i fear the seperation, for i fear at how i need to react at the reunion

i fear for losing a fren, for i fear the entire process of having to know another
i fear losing a loved one, for i fear the sense of loss i may experience
i fear losing my sight, for i fear i'm unable to see the things in life
i fear losing my hearing, for i fear not hearing the things u will say to me
i fear losing my sense of smell, for i fear not knowing u r around
i fear losing my sense of taste, for i fear not being able to taste life with u
i fear losing my sense of touch, for i fear not being able to feel u
i fear losing in life, for i fear having to start all over again

i fear, for i fear the unknowing fear

bye.for.now.jess

this is for my beloved IGNITIONS

to ignitions: u r the best!!!

(change the font size as i realised tt it's pretty small, hope this will turn out alrite.. dun wan pple to suffer fr eye sight prob after reading my blog. and this blog shld not be takan as a part of the eye sight test)

my pillars of support.. how can i ever survive without u. 4 gers and a boy, the ingredients to a long-lasting friendship with no competion within. i cant imagine, it is war going to class le, all the constant searching of benches (with plugs), all the pushing in the constantly busy photocopying rm, how can one ever endure internal conflicts?? not targeted at any other grp, although some similarities can be derived, but really, how can one ever think of guarding urself against ur so-called team mates?? are u sure u are team-mates or working partners? or aquaintances (did i get the spelling correct? wat the heck)?

back to wat i was saying.. i left notes of encouragements in ur blogs.. hopefully it will help tie u thru the entire mugging period. as for gang hao, u can read fr here, if u ever read my blog.. gang hao: hey, 1/5 of ignitions and the only one of the opposite gender, jia you for exams.. divine intervention will be with u thru the entire exams.. (u nv can appreciate y we gers love to blog.. it's really fun, u shld try it man..)

sometimes, we can nv understand y some pple make certain decisions.. question them we shall not.. cos we shld not, it's simple respect. hopefully we can get them to tell us their reasons.. this will further build the relationship, like bricks and cement.

in any case,

hang on,

press on,

hold on,

watever on,

tv on,

radio on,

music on,

life has to go on..

bye.for.now.jess

juz an update

thot i shall juz come up and blog some things since i haven done it quite a while's time. and this is a good way to keep myself company whole attaching some stuff to send to my jie for printing.. no wonder it's called HOTmail.. it really makes pple HOT!!! u shld noe how long i waited for the darn doc to be uploaded.. and the thg doesn seem to move at all.. my god...

and blogging so late into the nite is pretty good too.. pple will think "wow, jess so studious.. study until so late.. almost 2am le.." muahaha, actually i took 5 like almost an hr ago, so those who thot i study til late at nite, no stress ya.. not testing water session here...

lrity lah, nothing much to busy myself with, juz the intensive revision..

and to think after waiting so long, the stupid hotmail tell me too large a doc to attach.. muz get extra storage space or somethg like tt.. not sure lah.. extra storage space? ok lor, later i go IKEA get lor.. i better go Tampines tt one, warehse style.. (sickening!!)

ok i'm pissed (in sherman's way).. but anyway, i was saying juz busy with revision for the upcoming exams.. occasionally gg to sch ans staying at home to mug..looking forward to it cos it has been a lost and confusing semester.. have been bumping ard too much.. so gotta get some serious studying now.. hopefully everythg will go fine,

divine intervention needed!!!

bye.for.now.jess