it's more on my part for being selfish.. i failed to notice tt u needed my encouragement instead of me telling u i dun wanna face realities.. i guess it's childish of me.. thinkin abt not finding out abt my results so tt i can "enjoy" myself better in HK.. wat the f**k.. how can i ever feel better with somethg weighing on me?? dumbo me..
coming back and checking my results.. i realised i did ok.. then it dawned on me on how i shld approach u.. i need to think if the rite way, how to phrase my sentences to make sure they dun hurt u in any way..
i sent a msg to u after tagging ur blog.. i hope to catch up with u.. but somehow, there was this distance between us.. i didn noe wat happen?? i was only away fr S'pore for 5 days.. wat happened to us??
u told me u were disappointed.. and tt forgiving is easy but forgetting is not.. i couldn comprehend.. i was troubled and puzzled for the whole day.. but well at least, it gave me a chance to reflect on the thgs i hav done..
i'm glad u told me abt wat u felt abt the whole thg.. i realised wat i hav done.. pls noe tt this is nv my intention to treat a fren like this.. i was so taken aback when u qn me abt this suddenly.. guilty surges.. i tried my best to explain.. this is definitely not a way to find a way out.. it;s more on trying to let u noe wat really happen over at my side.. hope u can understand..
but i'm glad we hav settled this prob.. like wat u say, forgiving is easy but forgetting is not.. i noe we may need some time.. i hope this will not be a hurdle between us.. can time heal our wounds?? i seriously and sincerely hope so..
now tt i can chat with u on msn so freely, i thank god for it.. i'm thankful this has not jeopardise our friendship.. i do hope, instead, after this, we will share a stronger relationship.
bye.for.now.jess
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